tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46825430575345549712024-03-19T12:48:46.907-07:00SoTamBlue......Real Life Black Girl '78The thoughts and rambles of a Real Life Black Girl. Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-86449578379875444032021-04-02T11:31:00.000-07:002021-04-02T11:31:39.355-07:00<p>Election day. 2020</p><p>Brain dump </p><p><br /></p><p>We won't even know the winner today. We have at least a week for that. I will focus on staying black. You see that is the thing, no matter who wins, I will still be a child of an enslaved African. A child of American Slavery. No matter who wins that fact will be ignored, the proven damage that this has caused will be ignored. The jim crow laws, the KKK, the burning crosses, the fathers that never made it home, the poverty all of it will be ignored. No matter who wins Black men will be seen as the enemy and the problem. NO MATTER who wins the LGBTQI agenda will outweigh the Black agenda. This election had no benefit for ME directly that I was able to see. No one spoke directly to me, my people, or my community. I think both Red and Blue are racist, sexist, classist, and anti-black. </p><p>Both Red and Blue will deny White Supremacy, will deny the hate and fear of black skin so fuck'em both.</p><p>I just had to get this off my chest you know and No!! I am not anti LGBTQI... so don't even try me. </p><p>today - I will not buy into the fear that is being spread, the anxiety that is being shared via post. Even a post telling me how to keep calm "in these times" is annoying as fuck to me. Yall understand Black People have never stopped being killed!! The police have killed us under Blue and Red, prisons were built under Blue and Red, Black folks were over punished under both Blue and Red. Black people have been out here getting screwed over every way you look, overworked and underpaid, feared, killed, lynched, raped, and lied on. We have been experimented on in labs and in our communities with and without our permission, guns, and drugs delivered to our neighborhood by these Blue and Red politicians that I am supposed to care about. GTFOH!!!!</p><p>Yes I voted, No I didn't vote for Trump... so please Do Not try me.</p><p>Also, I see you all taking on the water again..smh. I will not be in this fight... this is not my fight, not this time. Please keep it all in your own neighborhoods. fight with each other. leave me out of it. </p><p>I had to get all of this out of my head so when I see you or your post I can respond with the joy in my heart. I still have joy in my heart of course. I know the only thing keeping me sane is my connection with my ancestors. <br /></p><p><br /></p><p> </p><p><br /></p>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-47452017607805089662018-07-25T12:05:00.000-07:002018-07-25T12:05:12.025-07:00I'm better left alone<br />
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I’m a better person when I am alone. I think I underestimated
how influenced by others I have been, like my whole like. I remember a report
card from my child hood. Tamara is very talkative and is easily influenced by
others….. That was the only comment I remember. I do not remember anyone doing
anything or talking to me about it. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I am not sure when I noticed that it was a problem, but I
know I did. That is the point I made sure that everything I did was because I
wanted to do it. Through the years I may have done a few things I didn’t want
to do, I either had no choice, no awareness or was possibly forced. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Social media was bringing all of that back. I was able to influence
by so many people and so many things and situations. I think I was to confused,
I wasn’t brave, I was shame to have a different opinion or no opinion at all. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I am a better person when I am alone, left to create my own
reality. Left to create my own expectations, based of desires that I have from
within myself. Like I am a much better person when I am alone. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I always only trying to be a better person….. <o:p></o:p></div>
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**This is gonna be a actual blog, just a public space I can share honestly </div>
<br />Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-47521821510180978582017-06-19T15:13:00.001-07:002017-06-19T15:13:47.191-07:00Juneteenth <div class="" data-block="true" data-editor="680j4" data-offset-key="b3s9s-0-0" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">
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<span data-offset-key="b3s9s-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I wanted to write a poem. I wanted to write a quick little list poem about Juneteenth. I wanted to talk about how a friend wanted to do a celebration here at work for Juneteenth. I wanted to talk about how we don’t ever talk about it. I wanted to talk about freedom and emancipation. I wanted to write it over the weekend so that it would be ready to post Monday.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="b3h96-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">There was another acquittal.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="90os-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Then </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4ftuk-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">There was another shooting. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5mb8a-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Then I couldn’t write </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5nrd9-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I could not write a poem about FREEDOM </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="am37o-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Not about FREEDOM… </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="2j3pd-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Not today. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="c4cs0-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I want to talk about black folks. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8hntg-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I want to talk too black folks. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fv4sr-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I want to sit with black folks.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="d4fvd-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;"> Only Black folks </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8vg13-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I want to talk!!!</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="bkg4f-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I need to talk!! </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5dp9g-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">We need to talk! </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="5q3h6-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I am positive I will never experience freedom </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="973b-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Not on this planet </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fpbhp-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Not in this cycle of my life</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="59put-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I have accepted that. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="flfa5-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">It is not a mistake, that when picking a soccer team on his tablet </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="q03l-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">My son complains there are not enough black player on the teams.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="bdm7v-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">He is visibly excited and cheers when he is able to get a new black player </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="51sda-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I asked him – why does it matter if you only have 1 black player on your team?. It’s just a game. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="6r8vq-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">He then explains his 8 yrs old feelings</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="33tef-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">“Well it just seems like everything is white, like everything and everyone is white and that is just not true. It also seems like everything is way harder for black people so I get excited when the black player get enough points to be starters, then I can pick them. I just like playing with more black players because, I am black. I don’t know I just like seeing Black people win…. Even if just a video game.”</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9jsb7-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">At this moment I was proud</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="94lf0-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I did not correct him. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="esk98-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">“See that’s what’s up! I love seeing black folks win too! Most of the time we all we got. It is harder on this planet being black, it is. BUT it don’t mean that you gonna be a bum or nothing good will happen for you, it just means you may have to work harder and not be lazy. You have to be able to stay focused on your goals... most people are not gonna expect the best from us, so we prove them wrong” </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="das0u-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">At some point I thought maybe I shouldn’t tell my kids about this kinda stuff. Maybe I am making them angry for no reason, maybe by the time they are teens the world would be safe and open season on black folks would be over. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="55o71-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I know my children are Black. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="fs821-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">My children know they are Black. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="f02gk-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">My children know that all human kind started from Africa </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="61npf-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">This Juneteenth, I will teach my children what I know. </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="avlii-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">1. Slavery ended in 1863 but not in the south </span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="4e9qd-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">a. Emancipation Proclamation on September 22, 1862, which became federal law on January 1, 1863. With the Emancipation Proclamation all slaves in rebel states were declared free, and any of the Confederate States denying this new freedom to its black citizens were considered to be in rebellion with the Union.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="3sn03-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">2. War started because the folks on the south wanted to keep their slaves</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="66kvh-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">a. Civil War was declared over on May 9, 1865, many Texans did not know because of their geographical isolation.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="9vqgh-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">b. On June 18, General Granger arrived at Galveston Island, Texas with 2,000 Union troops</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="8hrcd-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">3. June 19th a day after the troops got to TX, “General Order No. 3” was issued</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="f05r7-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">a. The people of Texas are informed that, in accordance with a proclamation from the Executive of the United States, “all slaves are free.” This involves an absolute equality of personal rights and rights of property between former masters and slaves, and the connection heretofore existing between them becomes that between employer and hired labor. The freedmen are advised to remain quietly at their present homes, and work for wages. They are informed that they will not be allowed to collect at military posts, and that they will not be supported in idleness either there or elsewhere.</span></div>
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Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-89463487672829442762017-05-08T10:08:00.000-07:002017-05-08T10:08:50.559-07:00March I made some changes in my life<div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;">
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fasting, fasting every Monday with a group of women #NewFastGirl. During this
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understand in regards to my connection or relationship with food. I had no
relationship with food I just ate because you are supposed to eat and certain
times of the day. I did not pay attention to what I ate at all. Going out to
eat was so difficult because I had so many options, nothing was off limits. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The 1<sup>st</sup> week of march
I made a change – I didn’t say how long I was going to do something I just said
I was going to do it. I took some b4 pictures I joined a work out challenge
#LTGKTB and I said to myself – Try it out. THIS IS NOT A DIET, is what I said. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">*Sidenote; I grew up with a
mother that was on diets most of my life I HATE DIETS so I in my almost 40 yrs
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rules for myself. Small things that I would be able to keep up not just for 60
days (that is how long the work out challenge was) but for a lifetime. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Stopped eating white rice, or pasta, or potatoes </span><span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "wingdings"; font-size: 12.0pt;">L</span><span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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</span></span><!--[endif]--><span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Reduced my meat intake ( mainly only eating meat once a day) <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Setting up boundaries helped me
sooooo much. I did not feel deprived. Going out to eat was so easy, after I
removed all of those things up there the menu began to appear very small. I was
having good meals. I would cook or “prep” sometimes but I knew I was not about
to be able to keep that up…. How I look focusing that much time and energy into
food….when you remember what I said earlier I had no relationship with food, I
eat because we are supposed to. I mean I can eat wings and salad every day,
every meal. So no way I was gonna be a food prepping master. So I had to do
what worked for me. Cooking up a bunch of veggies and onions and stuff so that
all I had to do was grill whatever met I was going to have or whatever meat the
kids had, boom dinner. I needed it to be easy… when it is hard I don’t want to
do it. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I started the month off at Two
hundred and twenty four pounds …. 224 lbs, That is one pound shy of my weight
the day I came to give birth to my last child. So basically in the last 5 years
I have maintained the pregnancy weight. I am the original #thickchick so I
wasn’t mad about it. I didn’t like how my outfits fit me but still I knew I was
fine!!! Confidence was never the issue. It was the ability to MOVE! – I am only
5’3 I was carrying around a lot of weight and I was limiting myself in
activities. I would just not do things because I didn’t want anyone to see that
I couldn’t put my shoes on easily anymore. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Now listen everyone is different,
so for me I was too heavy. I knew I didn’t want to do herbalilfe I wasn’t going
to drink the Tea or take the pills, I didn’t want to have to be in debit to
anyone to be able to be fitter. I didn’t want to only know how to do it if I am
drinking 3 shakes a day. I didn’t want any gimmicks. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1d2129; font-family: "inherit" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">So I spent 60 days changing my
life in regards to food. I have broken all of those rules a few times in the
last 60 days. For the 1<sup>st</sup> time I am seeing results, positive
results. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-18601720173923348202012-04-19T00:02:00.001-07:002012-04-19T00:02:28.750-07:0014/30 If you knew me...<b id="internal-source-marker_0.48778693517670035"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I was reminded of my responsibility this evening. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">stumbled upon a video, and then hundreds more entitled.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If you knew me...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Our children are stressed out </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">picking on each other </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">attacking </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">any and every difference </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">isolating each other </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">our girls </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">our young girls </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">should never </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be filled </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">with so much fear </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">the cut in the morning </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">as a release </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to make it thru the day </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">purge after gym </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to full from </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">holding in shame </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So insecure </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I wonder </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">the secrets </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">the name caller has </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">why hate </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">slides past her lips </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">as easy</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">as butter on pancakes </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Fat.Stupid.Ugly </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">retard.fag.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">die</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">what would make it ok </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to offer an option</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">of suicide </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">condone such an act </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and even </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">after </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">the names shot </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">past your lips </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">with perfect aim</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">landing </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">as a cut </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">on the arm</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">she will still </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">with badge hanging </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">offer to hug you </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">her heart </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">is not harmed </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">kim 15</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">smiled </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">after </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">she shared her story </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and offered </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">an open ear </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I told her </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">she </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">is an inspiration </span></b>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-7754371927055009402012-04-18T23:21:00.000-07:002012-04-18T23:21:01.004-07:0013/30 - 1965<b id="internal-source-marker_0.5149007590953261"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Who </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">can turn Slavery </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to presidency</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">3 bedroom </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">8 sleeping </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">8 eating </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">cleaning and living </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">inanimate to adamant</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">those born</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and would like to live</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Kings </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">would sacrifice </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to survive </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">beat me </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">shattered </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">heritage mystery</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">professor </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">confused on Roots </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Uproot and fight </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Stand with pride </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Shame on you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">we</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">fear </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">not eating </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">sparing self </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">for growth </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">for defence </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">of family </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">every black family </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">has a revolutionary </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">or a Gangster </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">2 calls away </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">They come </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">guns drawn</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">He prays </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">they don't kill him</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">knows </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">what will happen </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">if they do</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">1968</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">black man </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">murdered </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">for participating </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">in his god given right </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to protect his family </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">burning </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">over 40 years </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">hot</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">off the</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">presses </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">another black man shot </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">another cole in the </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">fire</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">something is gonna burn </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">like August 15th</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">1965</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">this time </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">they</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">wont </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">call it </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">uprise </span></b>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-59619741200563774852012-04-17T22:52:00.002-07:002012-04-17T22:52:36.213-07:0011/30 married with children<br />
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<em><strong>I miss my friends today</strong></em></div>
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<em><strong>this morning</strong></em></div>
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<em><strong>at this moment</strong></em></div>
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<em><strong>I missed my friends</strong></em></div>
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<em><strong> but</strong></em></div>
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<em><strong>I am reminded of seasons</strong></em></div>
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<em><strong>that made it just bit easier</strong></em></div>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-76308411451697196492012-04-17T22:04:00.004-07:002012-04-17T22:51:55.213-07:0012/30 - The Titanic<span id="internal-source-marker_0.5386077903676778"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Why I have never seen the Titanic</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I knew getting on the ship </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">was a bad idea to begin with.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span>I'm Black </span><br />
<br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Stay Home.</span>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-7356191402944946982012-04-13T15:53:00.001-07:002012-04-13T15:54:27.368-07:00The Click Song 10/30<span id="internal-source-marker_0.12492041406221688"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.12492041406221688"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mrs.Makeba </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">You made brown skin </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">so desirable</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">as a little redbone girl </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I was fascinated by your beauty </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">your complexion</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The undeniable fact </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">of your blackness </span><br /><span style="vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">your African cheeks </span></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">nose and chin</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">your language </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">fitting your features </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">African</span></span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I never had that </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">never looked black </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">always could have been mixed </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">second language</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">was spanish </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">In Johannesburg </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">where you were born </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">where all the children </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">carry african names </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and blood </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and features </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">like you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">some called me black</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">because of my locs</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">only thing that saved me </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">the natural kinck in my hair </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">unloc’d </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">would have </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">guaranteed me colored </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mama Africa </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">your politics </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">lived past your years </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">you survived </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">apartheid and</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">exile</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">your songs </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">brilliantly </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">inspired </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">generations</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">your smile </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">can light up any stage</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">every room </span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">is easily filled with your voice</span></span><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Miriam</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">you were Africa </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to a redbone American girl</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">fascinated </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">by the Xhosa language</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">the click song played at my wedding</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and I was a young girl </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">getting married</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and i found it fitting </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">that you would be there .</span>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-64157358035693492302012-04-12T11:44:00.003-07:002012-04-12T11:44:56.302-07:00Hot Pink 9/30<b><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">9//30</span></b><br />
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<b id="internal-source-marker_0.12696359888650477"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">hot pink blush </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">isnt getting much use</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">these day </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">get’em girl jeans </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">aint gettin no love</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">these days</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">flip flops</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">more often than heels </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">these days </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">lucky to find the time </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">for pedicures </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">or manicures </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">peanut butter </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and banana </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">sandwich</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">with a green smoothie</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">quick and easy </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">in between laundry </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and breast feeding </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I got my nails done </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">felt guilt while I was gone </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">smiled </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">like I was being sneaky </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Husband said I need to do it more often </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I deserve it </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Son wanted to go next time </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">so he can paint them for me </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">both my men said I looked pretty </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I still washed dishes that night </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I still made dinner </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">gave the baby a bath </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; 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vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be understanding differences </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">communicating </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">pains and desires </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">moving past your issues </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">with daddy </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">with men </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">your brother </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; 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font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be waiting for you to love yourself </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">so you can finally </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be in </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">love </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be already knowing you got issues </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be seeing the bigger picture </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be waiting to talk it out</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">even if it take 3 days </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">25 emails </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">102 text</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and a phone call</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">from your mama</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; 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font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">but so complex </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to be in love </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">is continuous </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">it is work </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">it is forever </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">but it is always worth it </span></b>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-35554766124986019502012-04-11T17:36:00.002-07:002012-04-11T17:36:10.479-07:00To know me 7/30<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">7/30</span></span><br />
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<b id="internal-source-marker_0.9851745441555977"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I reggae </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">pop</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">hip hop </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">r n b </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">reality tv </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">politics </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">controversy </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">see the other sides</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">side</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">opinionated </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A manual would be suitable </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">for you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If I would have known </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">you didn't know </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">how to know me </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I would have </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">kept our friendship </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">aim, gchat isolated </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">profile private </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">google plus </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Accantince </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Simple conversations </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">no intimacy needed </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">you superficial </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">vain stereotype </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">of a scorned women </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">wishy washy </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">selfish </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and mean </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I know how to know you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">know how to look past all of that </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">let you be you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">except and encourage you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">hug </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">sit with you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">know you </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If I would have known </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">you didn't know how to know me</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">how to be a friend to me </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">how to let me grow </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and change </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and mature </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I am gospel </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">dance hall </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">electronica </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and funk </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I change </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I wish I would have known </span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-weight: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">you couldn't keep up </span></b>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-14206110063471165362012-04-07T07:09:00.001-07:002012-04-07T07:09:34.693-07:006/30 XXL Naked<br />
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<strong> Stopped at the clinic</strong></div>
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<strong>Lips black ain't smoke no blunts yet</strong></div>
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<strong>gonna get you High bet</strong></div>
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<strong>Grape Flavored Blunt wraps</strong></div>
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<strong> Heavily clouded visions</strong></div>
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<strong>Call it my twenties</strong></div>
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<br class="Apple-interchange-newline" />Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-28879204670329256362012-04-05T19:45:00.001-07:002012-04-05T19:45:21.936-07:00Anesthesia 5/30Cut open, dissected, mutilated, and put back together <br />
she blames the anesthesia<br />
for her loss of memory <br />
can tell you the name and height <br />
of the man she should have married <br />
the man who threw rocks at her wedding <br />
the star basketball player at Jefferson high school 1964<br />
he loved her then,<br />
asked her to wait for him<br />
he was going to be a good man<br />
<br />
she remembers being hit <br />
across the back with a 2/4 <br />
docking being hit by a flying tv<br />
being called fat and stupid and bitch <br />
accused of sleeping with <br />
any and every man<br />
he was crazy after the war <br />
and she has stories <br />
because she remembers <br />
finding him in the fetal position <br />
in the corner of the room. <br />
reminding him the war was over. <br />
and he was safe <br />
he was home <br />
<br />
She remembers shoplifting <br />
for dinners<br />
for treats <br />
for Christmas<br />
for fun<br />
<br />
she remembers traffic tickets <br />
and a weekend in jail<br />
<br />
I remember <br />
loss prevention office at 10yrs old <br />
the words “you know we could take your daughter”<br />
the warning<br />
the photos taken <br />
the merchandise returned<br />
banned from the local mall<br />
the shame <br />
<br />
she remembers pageants <br />
and banquets <br />
hundreds of dollars on dresses <br />
and make up <br />
traveling to competitions <br />
and winning I was a winner <br />
<br />
I sucked my thumb til 6 yrs old<br />
wet the bed till 7<br />
I remember hot sauce <br />
and jalapeno juice <br />
the threat of being called ugly <br />
having an overbite <br />
she can't remember <br />
<br />
she can't remember <br />
telling me to suck in my stomach <br />
at 6,7,8,9<br />
<br />
she remembers how well I could walk in heels <br />
at such a young age<br />
<br />
she forgets her bad choices <br />
the cocaine, the clubbing, the pills, the 80’s <br />
the celebration of being free <br />
of feeling free<br />
<br />
I remember <br />
there are no instructions for life<br />
you do your best <br />
with what you have<br />
<br />
she remembers what she can <br />
when she can <br />
I tell her stories<br />
to reminder her of somethings <br />
others things I remind myself <br />
to forget<br />Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-17488572694030783542012-04-04T19:31:00.001-07:002012-04-04T19:31:49.797-07:004:00am 4/30<br />
baby is full and sleeping <br />
in her bassinet<br />
<br />
4oz of milk <br />
pumped and frozen <br />
<br />
checked on my little man <br />
covered his legs <br />
kissed his forehead <br />
husbands hand is searching the <br />
warm spot I once lay in<br />
it’s 4 am<br />
<br />
Im counting money <br />
planning meals <br />
sorting clothes <br />
and checking emails <br />
<br />
I took a shower <br />
with toys around my feet <br />
at the usual time <br />
midnight<br />
<br />
I didn't sleep very long <br />
sleep is overrated <br />
and hard to come by <br />
some days <br />
<br />
Whenever you have a moment <br />
that you can make 100% yours <br />
<br />
take it <br />
bask in it <br />
<br />
I prayed out loud in a whisper <br />
did 25 crunches <br />
ate a banana and a slice of cake<br />
watched rupaul's drag race <br />
and drank hot tea with honey <br />
nettle, raspberry and fenugreek <br />
with no fear of burning a baby<br />
<br />
I did my own thang<br />
uninterrupted <br />
for 48 mins.<br />
<br />
for 48 mins <br />
no one called me mommy <br />
no one nursed from me <br />
or spooned me <br />
no diapers were changed <br />
no owies were kissed <br />
no bottoms whipped <br />
no questions about breakfast<br />
about lunch or dinner <br />
no questions repeated fiftyleven times<br />
no whining <br />
no crying <br />
<br />
only peace <br />
and the breeze <br />
<br />
calmly after 10 mins of meditation <br />
I return to bed<br />
to spoon <br />
to cuddle <br />
to rest<br />
<br />
my children <br />
are safe, fed and dreaming<br />
<br />
what more can a mother/wife ask for <br />
at 4 in the morningTamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-1324969882018900222012-04-03T20:54:00.002-07:002012-04-03T20:54:23.730-07:003/30 Staying Alive3/30 Staying Alive<br />
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<br />
It’s a debt card with a $14 balance <br />
swiped for $10 of gas <br />
to take your oldest child to meet the easter bunny <br />
for free in the local park<br />
<br />
Its a $1 dress washed and iron<br />
its feeling pretty<br />
its feeling worthy<br />
its mistakes corrected<br />
its corrections accepted<br />
<br />
its friendships lasting<br />
its ending friendships<br />
<br />
its check to check<br />
beans and rice<br />
<br />
its kisses and hugs<br />
fucking when its cold<br />
<br />
its everything you needed<br />
r<br />
ight on time<br />
<br />
its breast milk<br />
saved and stored<br />
<br />
its baby on the breast<br />
for over a year<br />
<br />
it is change<br />
it is staying the same<br />
<br />
it is stayingalive<br />Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-55244075628910589612012-04-02T20:25:00.000-07:002012-04-03T20:54:58.169-07:002/30 Perfect DatePerfect Date<br />
<br />
You are more comfortable going on dates, that never leave your home. <br />
The smell of nag champa, so thick you can barely see yourself in the mirror. <br />
<br />
Planning a date that will last till the early morning. <br />
You wish he would offer to take you to breakfast<br />
But he is always busy, leaving by sunrise<br />
<br />
Lonely in your bed you sleep til midday. <br />
on nights he is too busy to screw you, you french kiss on dance floors at night clubs<br />
Girlfriends watch you leave with strangers <br />
soon to be given nicknames like<br />
36<br />
speed O<br />
stripper<br />
cool breeze<br />
white boy <br />
You smoke too much weed to remember names <br />
you remember events or attributes <br />
<br />
36 <br />
the physical therapist 12 yrs older than you <br />
married, with a baby on the way.<br />
it's easier when you don't call them by name.<br />
you can't feel guilty for what you did to his family <br />
<br />
You feel shame for who you are<br />
embarrassed for what you have done <br />
what you have excepted <br />
<br />
The water in the shower is just not hot enough<br />
to clean your filthy skin<br />
you have been touched in all the wrong places <br />
by all the wrong people <br />
with and without your permission.<br />
<br />
you are most comfortable with date that begin and end at your home<br />
but you dream of car rides and valet <br />
A waitress taking your order<br />
A man looking into your eyes<br />
footsie under the table <br />
a dessert shared<br />
A walk under the night <br />
an over sized jacket on your shoulders <br />
<br />
You don't believe you deserve better.<br />
you pray <br />
you fast <br />
you read books <br />
by Iyanla or Queen Afua<br />
waiting for a healing <br />
<br />
So until that day <br />
you are satisfied with nag champa and candles <br />
and a dinner date with no dinner <br />
starting at 10...at your place<br />
<br />Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-86748993668956383312012-04-01T01:15:00.000-07:002012-04-01T01:17:27.217-07:00NaPoWriMo #1<br />
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I’ve always wanted to have manners <br />
that of a southern bell <br />
or african princess <br />
invited to the debutante ball<br />
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I was not <br />
in the running for best behaved <br />
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it is difficult to remind my children to say <br />
please and thank you <br />
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as I rarely remember myself <br />
<br />
I’ve set my goal on being a lady<br />
not a woman or a girl <br />
<br />
BUT<br />
<br />
my poverty is showing <br />
I drink beer <br />
I drink it from the bottle <br />
I have no clue on table settings <br />
dining room tables <br />
were replaced with TV trays <br />
and comfy couches <br />
family conversation <br />
can't be heard over the blare of the tv<br />
I can pee outside <br />
standing up<br />
easy <br />
<br />
In my 20’s when my breast were perky <br />
years befour nursing <br />
I could be seen <br />
strolling the stress <br />
in a beater <br />
no bra <br />
cargo pants and sneakers <br />
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dresses <br />
with no stocking <br />
on Sundays<br />
<br />
I really wanted to be a southern bell <br />
going to the debutante ball <br />
<br />
I wasn't born in the south <br />
not even south central<br />
I’m far from the most hoodest girl you will met<br />
not nearly the most proper <br />
<br />
not a southern darling <br />
enough to correct your behavior <br />
but I got coretta convection <br />
Mississippi burning <br />
clans men coming <br />
fist in the air marching <br />
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don't count me out <br />
<br />
behind the red locs and freckles <br />
behind the poverty childhood <br />
with in the check to check living <br />
I am a lady <br />
crossed at the ankles <br />
no elbows on the table <br />
<br />
lady <br />
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</a>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-29202417493796270352009-03-21T14:42:00.000-07:002009-03-21T15:10:18.596-07:00wedding planning and the rest of the weekThere is only one way your husband should react to saying i do. <br />I got that JOY JOY JOY JOY down in my heart!! <br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/NKP1H9PnL-w&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/NKP1H9PnL-w&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />So lets see we are just about 5 months exactly away. <br /><br />I will put the deposit on the location this week... YAY for tax refunds !! <br /><br />I have a wedding planner now: Eboni aka Judy Holiday- <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/45/m_bb3f44712207ac148d3c40de17693226.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 170px; height: 226px;" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/45/m_bb3f44712207ac148d3c40de17693226.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />She loves me, she understands i may be calm and chill now BUT will prolly act crazy come August, I think she is ready, and like i said she loves me: <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/28/m_60a24ccb2d87b8cea1aa7938034d25d8.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 170px; height: 410px;" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/28/m_60a24ccb2d87b8cea1aa7938034d25d8.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />she came by the other night and we made it happen, i changed my colors again. I think i have my photographer and my invitation website, thats gonna be fresh a wedding website LOL. <br /><br />In reality TV. i missed everything this week with overtime and wedding planning i cant find time for my shows LOL <br /><br />but i did see I love money: poor bones =( i dont know what they were thinking. <br /><br />MUSIC: I listen to this song a few times this morning and it made me feel great. I love good music. <br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/1gGO0H49Hm0&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/1gGO0H49Hm0&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-49502444720052778792009-03-16T15:24:00.000-07:002009-03-16T15:26:24.523-07:003/16have a strong and successful week.<br /><br />its NOT in vain <br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/pWtrpuPHDcM&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/pWtrpuPHDcM&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-56099065385551372822009-03-13T08:37:00.000-07:002009-03-13T08:39:21.554-07:00Please baby PleaseBecause Nikki Likes Books Babies and Black People<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/jdUDhRJycq0&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/jdUDhRJycq0&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Tamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-89171508592126880442009-03-11T08:32:00.000-07:002009-03-11T08:42:57.159-07:00For nikki + plus updatesOk now we can really get some planning jumping off. Im going to go and put the deposit on the location next month for sure. <br /><br />After that I really don’t all the way know. I have a wedding planner now even though I haven’t met with her yet, she is one of my best friends we can knock this out in no time. <br /><br />Speaking of friends NIKKI BLAK is having a birthday again this year. I guess she gone have one every year for the next 90 or so years so I betta get to remembering. I have been low key looking for gifts for her since like Jan. I aint found shit. <br /><br />So I thought I would put together a lil montage of video’s for her from now until her birthday <br /><br />The first video for nikki is. We don’t rock tracks like that. <br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ckVvjGk3QYI&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ckVvjGk3QYI&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Cuz what nik can do is some HAIR. <br /><br />This video really touched me because how she spelled MESS. Im confused<br /><br />Im sure you are wondering how come i have not talked about the great reality television that i have been watching. so let me just recap.<br /><br />I Love Money: how old is safari? her voice is killing me. I cant wait for IT to start talking more because he is special. <br /><br />on that note it came to me the other night when i was half watching Harlem heights, that i like foolishness. how the fuck want to see a bunch of people way younger then me making more money and doing more shit. i dont. <br /><br />maybe i am a hater and i just like watching girls fight and act silly. <br /><br />did you see the fight on bad girls club. oh shit google it. LOL <br /><br />also for nikki: <object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/4T5AMomdy8A&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/4T5AMomdy8A&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Have a great day folks <br /><br />I really need my own reality show ...<br /><br />My son is crawling for real. just so you knoTamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-64874581597399824172009-03-06T08:51:00.001-08:002009-03-06T08:55:53.378-08:00Its Fridaybecause it is Friday and so far i have not done one more thing to plan this weeding outside of looking at magazine. <br /><br />in goodnews my lil sweet six month old is in his own room. <br /><br />so have a laff on me: <br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/dxqT-baM70c&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/dxqT-baM70c&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />This lil girl made my morningTamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4682543057534554971.post-27412880876654858232009-03-01T21:43:00.000-08:002009-03-01T22:15:23.441-08:00The wedding Count down BEGINSLet the Count Down Being. <br />Our wedding is Set for August 16, 2009 3:00pm <br /><br />For the record it is NO easy task to plan a wedding with little to no money, working a FULL time Job, caring for a 6 month old and still trying look good for your partner. No matter how much you are in love its work to plan a wedding on a TIGHT budget. <br /><br />Every day i think, Lets just go to the court house on Wednesday I'll take a long lunch or something. LOL <br /><br />But instead we keep planning. <br />My girlfriend said something MOST important. " do you want a Wedding or a Marriage" we i said marriage, she said then everything else will work out. <br /><br />so i will from time to time update you on the planning of this wedding. <br /><br />We have the location (for the most part) Its a place in Pasadena and because i am still planning and i have not put my deposit down all you will get is a picture. cant have you up and steal my location. <br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.herecomestheguide.com/images/location/NeighborhoodChurch/NeighborhoodChurch1.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://www.herecomestheguide.com/images/location/NeighborhoodChurch/NeighborhoodChurch1.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a> $2,400 for reception and ceremony i think its a really good price. It seats 175 people. the wedding will be outside the reception will be inside. with a bar if we want. plenty of parking and great locations for pictures. some awsome architecture and beautiful landscaping. For the most parts i am 100% pleased with the spot. But until i give them some money. <br />I still have options. I want to make this a special, unique and memorable night for My man and I, and all the family and friends who are able to come out.<br /><br />Friday night we started thinking what if we pick something different. something REALLY different. if we have way less people. if we have it at a like beach front or something like that. <br />BUT<br />WHY when you say wedding the price goes up thousands. If i say party its one price wedding its a WHOLE new monster. <br /><br />So we prolly gone be right at this spot in Pasadena. <br /><br />We almost had the damn wedding in the front of are apartment building, it really pretty. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">What we have(sorta):</span> Location , Honey moon location <br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">What we need:</span> Dress, suit,bridal party, Flowers,DJ's, Photographer,Make- up artist,Hair stylist, Decorations, Cake .... and i am sure a bunch more shit. <br /><br />5 months 3 weeksTamara Bluehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03528611377219396037noreply@blogger.com1