I'm better left alone

I’m a better person when I am alone. I think I underestimated how influenced by others I have been, like my whole like. I remember a report card from my child hood. Tamara is very talkative and is easily influenced by others….. That was the only comment I remember. I do not remember anyone doing anything or talking to me about it.

I am not sure when I noticed that it was a problem, but I know I did. That is the point I made sure that everything I did was because I wanted to do it. Through the years I may have done a few things I didn’t want to do, I either had no choice, no awareness or was possibly forced.

Social media was bringing all of that back. I was able to influence by so many people and so many things and situations. I think I was to confused, I wasn’t brave, I was shame to have a different opinion or no opinion at all.

I am a better person when I am alone, left to create my own reality. Left to create my own expectations, based of desires that I have from within myself. Like I am a much better person when I am alone.

I always only trying to be a better person…..

**This is gonna be a actual blog,  just a public space I can share honestly